It’e almost 11 pm and i’m just coming back from the movies. I went to see “girls trip” ( if you haven’t see it you have to!!) and let me tell you something.. The movie was awesome but I didn’t enjoy it as I wanted. Every time I can have a girls time I will! Before all of this getting married, having kids life, I just to be 24/07 with my friends. Every day all day! I have around 6 different groups of what I consider a very close and special friends. Some of them literally born with me lol! Some of them I meet them on the road, but i’ve been very lucky on this subject.. anyways.. the point is that when my friend jennifer invited me to the movies I said hell yes! I wanted to get out of my mommy routine and watch a nice movie, eat crap and forget about everything.. so I said yes. She bought the tickets, HOWEVER the cinema was kind of far from my home ( how surprising, considering I live in the boarder lol! ) and that would not be a problem but.. heeellloo.. i’m breastfeeding.. and I made the mega terrible mistake of stop giving him formula.. and now i’m screwed!! Yesss I know that exclusively breastfeeding and blablabla but with Mia I always mix and she it’s perfectly fine! So my issue was that it would take me 40 min to get there, 40 min to come back plus 2 or 3 hours of the movie.. there was no way this baby would not get super angry, specially because he wants his boob before bed time! So that’s it! I had to bring him with me. I didn’t even know that you can bring babies to movies.. like how is that allow? But apparently it is, so hoooray if you have a quiet nice baby like mine lol! But Matias was so awake the first part of the movie, and everyone was laughing and being loud and even tho the movie was super fun, I didn’t enjoy it as I would, like I don’t enjoy many things anymore. I lovee cooking even tho I don’t know how to cook, but it’s not fun when you are rushing, or having a baby crying in the back. I know I would enjoy planting, but again.. no time to take care of the plants.. I mean.. I can barely take a shower.. I used to enjoy shower, now if i’m lucky I’ll be able to have 10 beautiful minutes on the weekends to have one. I used to love drinking and get lots, now I know I have to be responsable because I have 2 babies who depend on me. There was this part on the movie that one of the girls says that we do not change. That there is people, your best friends, that knows you and even if you stop seeing them for years they would know you.. and everytime I come back home and I see them, is like the time or us didn’t change, everytime it is the same BUT.. This was before having two kids.. this was before being in this motherhood life for the last almost 3 years. If they see me know.. would they think i’m the same? Because Almost ALL of them said they cannot imagine me as a mother.. I didn’t either. Do I feel the same? Mmm definitely NOT! Do I miss the old
Me that still inside of me? Hell yess.. is she going to come back? Mmm.. not sure, only the time knows. Is mommy life the best life? Even tho I love my childrens and really, there is nothing that makes me more happy than them… I do not think so. There is tons of beautiful things about motherhood.. but there are also lots hard parts.. like every chapter of your life.. I love university times but there was some kind of pressure of finding what I wanted.. or when you get married, etc etc. Every chapter has something good and something not that good.. what is best? I don’t know, because I really enjoy all of them. Ok time to sleep.. because tomorrow I have to wake up early to give them some breakfast lol! Cheeeeers
